Saturday, August 11, 2012

A Little Stronger, a Little Happier

Sweet Kaden Layne,

Hi sweet girl.  It's so hard to believe that another month has come and gone so quickly.  We still think of you everyday and miss you so much. We often wonder what kind of three year-old you would have been.  Most times to us, though, you are still a little sweet, chunky-legged, blue-eyed 16 month-old girl. 

The reality for Mommy and Daddy is that our memories grow ever more faded. As time moves on, Mommy and Daddy find it ever more difficult to remember all the little things about you. That makes us saddest of all.

As your little sister gets closer to the age you were when you passed, we are blessed with the same kind of joy we felt with you.  Having her to hold and love and spend our days with helps make life so much brighter again.  What a precious gift that is to Mommy and Daddy.  We know not to take that kind of joy for granted.  We appreciate it more than anyone would imagine.

One of the greatest promises in the bible says that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love Him, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
Mommy knows there is good to come from all of this.  Mommy believes that God didn't take you away to hurt us or make us sad.  Having you for a short time was better than not ever knowing you.  Your little life served a big purpose for me.

Because of you, my sweet Kaden Layne, Mommy values time and relationships so differently than before.  Everyday, with help from God, Mommy tries to find a way to accept how your passing has changed things.  Life is a little more complicated, but everyday Mommy feels a little stronger, a little happier, and a little more hopeful. 

One day I know Mommy will get to see you and hold you again.

Miss you baby girl.

15 months