Today was a big day for Mommy. It was a big day for Layne, too. Today was her first day of preschool. How significant it was that it just so happened to be your day, too.
Last week was a week Mommy had been worrying over off and on for the past four years. How would Mommy feel? How would I get past this event? Would it be harder than I anticipated or would I be surprised? Would Mommy just stay so busy so as not to even think about it? For years I wondered how it would feel.
Last week your friends started kindergarten. And last week, believe it or not and to Mommy's surprise, I was ok. On that day a dear, sweet friend and mom of a former student from when Mommy taught kindergarten left a gorgeous bouquet of my favorite flowers on my desk. Along with a bag full of my favorites, a card was sent to brighten my day. This sweet soul anticipated that this day might be one that Mommy might need some extra TLC. My heart was warmed in such a big way.
Mommy has come to accept that there will be a lot of things along the way that I will just have to wait a little longer to experience. Whether Mommy has to wait until the day I see you again in heaven or wait until Layne is the age to experience what you didn't get to, Mommy is content.
Today was a good day. Mommy feels blessed to have had the experience of watching Layne go to school for the first time. Mommy has waited a long time for that kind of experience. And oh my, how I loved and cherished every part of it.
Love you and miss you my sweet girl..